I am 53, have been drinking steadily since I was 14. Except of some time in the US NAVY..when there were plenty of drugs to replace it. Now, It's time to quit.. I am out of control. It's the main cause of my serious depression and my failed marriage. It's effecting my work.. I go to work all the time, never miss a day, but I am in a stupor. Lack attention to detail and to be blunt.. IT's going to cost me the only thing/the only reason I still have to live.. My awfull job. That being said. I just HATE what it -alcohol- has done to my life. Need to find an AA group,, but the hours that I work, make it almost impossible. Plus it's a very rural area up here and with the price of gas. I can't afford to drive more then I already do. Today is the second day I haven't had a drink in over a year. I am really suffering. Please help me.