I'm so down I don't know what to do. I sit here with a drink in my hand, but nothing ever washes the pain away. I've tried so hard to move on from my ex, but when I see her facebook picture with her new bf, I want to rip my heart out. I have noone. The person to offer companionship doesn't exist in my life. I left my job because I became really depressed over the breakup and where my life was heading. I miss the money. Now I live with my parent's waiting for work to start in my electrical trade. It's a huge pay cut, and I don't know why I chose this path. I look at people I know and they have great jobs and are making a lot of money, when I'm just here being a burden and wasting space. I'm just looking for advice, not here for attention. I'm a failure and it's only evident that I might not be here in the next few years because I'm a horrible person. After my ex broke up with me I started saying really mean things about her on a public forum, trying every chance I could get to take revenge. Now I haven't talked to her in two years, and I don't know if that will ever happen again. I want my life to end because it's the only way to make all the pain and all the memories go away. I'm hurting, and I have noone to talk to.