okay, so i understand that this may sound weird and all so i will start from the beginning... my whole life i have been an animal rights activist. i boycott and avoid anything animal cruelty but lately, i feel so very overwhelmed by my beliefs and i just cant seem to make any difference in the world... i feel dead inside and the only thing that seems to make me go is the sheer driving force that is within me. i can't stand it anymore, i want the pressure off me but i refuse to accept the barbaric acts of rodeos and shark finning and all the other acts of abuse to animals. i know that some people arent as extreme as me or my family and it might be hard to understand im sorry but the abuse and suffering and this horrible weight on my chest is making me think more and more about suicide. i cant do it anymore. i just want it to stop. i hope this post makes sense to someone out there.