I just found out that he is having an affair. Now it makes sense why he sent me away. I can't breathe I can't stop shaking. My heart is beating too fast. I never cheated. Ever. I wouldn't do that. I was a bitch yes, cheater, never. What is this new pain I feel in my heart? Why? Why? I can't breathe. The tears stain my face. My throat is raw from screaming into my pillow. I want out. Just let me out. Why! Why! I don't understand. Confusion. Anger. Sad. Disbelief. My head hurts. Afraid to close my eyes, I might see his face. Hurts.