Hi, If you have never come across my posts before then I apologise if this may seem really random. But because my mind is like a ticking time bomb I just needed somewhere to execute the word vomit that is in my heart at the moment. Im on the road to healing after so many years and it is really hard at the moment, life has always been pretty exhausting but I'm finding that it really does have to get harder before it gets better. I have multiple issues that have grown from child abuse and other forms of abuse in my life. I continue to dominate life in what would seem a positive way to others however internally i am continually fighting a very long and hard battle. Just wondering if anyone else out there has come out the other end on the positive because right now i feel like my weaknesses just want me to give in to it all despite all my hard work and the hard work of other people- I have finally developed a strong support network, and everyone who has pushed me away because of the help i require has decided they want to know me and be apart of my journey now that I'm a success story- thats what my psychologist says. anyways just expressing some deep frustration with the world- people are so selfish and its really interesting that when things get to hard, the amount of people that just throw in the towel.