Wishing I wasn't here, feeling climbing mount everest would be easier than breathing right now. Have an out of control son, feel people would be so much better without me, my son included. Have recently got some family support but feel guilty at being a burden. Feel it has to me, I've had no energy for i don't know how long, all I want to do is sleep. Just feel I ruin everyones life, especially mine. Hate myself, hate everything. I so so would like to end it all right now, not sure I can stop myself, please please can anyone help me.