Ever feel like crying...with no valid reason as to why? I swear I feel like that quite a bit lately. It might have something to do with my mother being gone. It might have to do with school stressors. It might have to do with friend drama. But, I don't like being alone. I'm all smiles on the outside. But, I think I'm dying just a little bit on the inside. If this is what it's like when my mother goes away n' life gets a little tough, I guess I'm really not as ready as I felt to grow up a little bit. I'm 20 years old. I'm a full-time college student. I work two jobs. I am there as often as possible for the people who need me. But...why can't I just say that I need something? I guess I just don't want to be a burden. I guess I just want to be fun n' bubbly n' handle things on my own. I guess I'm just scared. I guess it's something I'll grow out of. But...I think I want to get through this. n' I want to move on. n' I want to grow up. n' I am strong enough to do so. My emotions are all effed up. I guess I like being the savior. I guess I just like being liked. I guess I just think...if I can continue on with this I'll never really be alone. Then...why do I feel like crying? Am I really that spent?