I have an appointment today with my therapist. She's okay, though she tends to talk a bit much which is frustrating when I'm trying to explain something that isn't easy to share.
Today, I feel like I need to tell her that I'm hurting over different things in my life. I want to share how one of these things is about my past concerning feelings of suicide. I don't think I'm suicidal right now, but I just feel really discouraged about life.
I've dealt with the mental health system long enough to know even slightly alluding to the idea of suicide can lead to being hospitalized which I am not okay with. It's bad enough struggling with these feelings and being locked up in some hellhole hospital like last time sure as shit won't help. But I want to be able to tell my therapist that I'm hurting. It's hard talking to people like my mother and the last time I called crisis line, I just hung up out of frustration.
Anyway, I'm not sure where I'm going with this so sorry if this didn't make sense. Just feel overwhelmed
Today, I feel like I need to tell her that I'm hurting over different things in my life. I want to share how one of these things is about my past concerning feelings of suicide. I don't think I'm suicidal right now, but I just feel really discouraged about life.
I've dealt with the mental health system long enough to know even slightly alluding to the idea of suicide can lead to being hospitalized which I am not okay with. It's bad enough struggling with these feelings and being locked up in some hellhole hospital like last time sure as shit won't help. But I want to be able to tell my therapist that I'm hurting. It's hard talking to people like my mother and the last time I called crisis line, I just hung up out of frustration.
Anyway, I'm not sure where I'm going with this so sorry if this didn't make sense. Just feel overwhelmed