I have a plan ready and was committed to it, but now as time gets closer I'm nervous. Like how stomach feels before going on a dollar coaster. Some of my actions today tho make me feel like I burnt some bridges. So again I am waffling, and that makes me angry with myself. I'm sorry if I am such a mess and a failure and stupid and if I offended anyone here ever. I can't get anything right anymore. I feel backed into a corner. Only way that I could feel worse is if I don't do it. That's powerful motivation. Why do I hesitate? Keep waiting for some last minute HOPE to pop up... Is that possible????