After a conversation today, I had with a friend, I just cannot do it anymore. Too many times I have tried to be with someone and in the end I ALWAYS end up used, Laura told me because I am "too nice" ,personally, I don't see it. But even my sister in her own way has said this, and it just makes me more sick. I am just so angry!! I DO NOT want to get close to anyone again! I am to the point I do not want to feel anything again, because every relationship in my life has lead to nothing but hurt. And I cannot think that is on account I do no believe in trying to be a problem on others, and I have put others above myself. It makes me wonder if women in general want to be treated like crap, and smacked across the room, if that's true, that makes me even more sick and disgusted. I am never going to be close like I was to Jana again. in the end all she wanted out of me was sex, and the money in my pocket...which I never gave one ounce to her. If I am too nice, she was just plain cruel, same with everyone I have dated. Its true then, in all honesty I am really the only one that cares about me.