I just joined, honestly I don't know where else to go. My life wasn't always like this, I wasn't always like this. About a month and a half ago I had some serious medical issues and I ended up in a coma for a week. I should be thrilled to be alive and grateful that I don't have serious brain damage, but everyday is a struggle. Before the coma I was a pretty normal 28-year-old guy. I am entering my final year of a Master's degree program, I have an amazing 8-year-old son, and my life is good. Since the coma, I have been crippled by depression and I have a lot of memory problems. Everyday has been an overwhelming struggle and it's getting worse, not better. Every night I go to bed hoping that I won't wake up. If it wasn't for my son, I know I would have already ended it, but I know it would devastate him. He and I are super close, but I know I am a really horrible parent to him right now. I try to put on a happy face with him, but I am failing. I don't know how to get better, but I know I can't hold on like this very much longer.