My background: 23 year old guy, in a relationship for 3 years with the most perfect person I'd imagine, recently graduated school, average looking, suffer from high anxiety (almost every situation makes me anxious), only have a part time job (15 hours/$150 a week), I live at home in a 2 bedroom apartment with my dad. The student loan debt and the hopelessness is what's driven me here. I simply do not want to live anymore. The feeling is paralyzing. I graduated in June, and have not been able to find a job. I have to start repaying my debt like now, and the monthly payment is so high that I will never be on my own. Me and my gf live an hour apart. She works and goes to school (a year away from graduating), and I can barely pay for gas to get to and from. It seems like even if I get a full time job, I will never be able to afford to live on my own ever. I cant stomach what my future is most likely to become. Fortunately, my Dad has a crapload of pills in his room, so actually carrying it out wouldn't be to hard.