Hi. My name is Jon. I am from Northwest Indiana. I'm 35 years old. I have never been depressed or suicidal one moment of my life. Until my wife of 8 years left me recently. At first I felt numb, then pissed off, then sad, then like garbage. That's where I am right now. I feel like trash that was thrown out. I don't know how she could just brush me aside so easily after all we've been through. I try to put on a nice face and act like I'm ok, but I'm not! I still love her more than anything, and she is already moving on and we aren't even divorced yet. She won't see me or talk to me. We can only text. I guess I could get over it if I knew what I did wrong. She gives me the it's not you it's me routine. But that makes no sense. I just feel so alone and low right now I just want to die. And I feel so ashamed saying that because I have evereything any man could ever want. But she ripped my heart out and I can't get back on track.