I have been depressed for a couple of years now but it has never been this bad. It has come to a point where all I want to do is sleep because every time I'm awake I am breaking down every hour or so. I have stopped taking my medication as it just made me feel more suicidal. Now for the past 3 weeks I have been wanting to end my life and 2 days ago I attempted to hang myself but failed miserably but when I tried again I stopped because I did not want to hurt my family or my friends. Because of this I fucking hate my family and friends i just want this pain to end and it won't it is eating away at me. I would like to tell my parents how I feel but they are going through a lot my mum recently had an operation for breast cancer so the family is already down enough as it is. But I feel like I cannot take this pain any more. I have also started cutting again not much just a few cuts on my wrist. I have no idea what to do any more.