That's how I'm feeling. I have two bi-polar parents and somehow escaped being bipolar. :mortdesinos: But I didn't escape thier wrath. I'm 30 and just now realizing that I've been severely emotionally abused for my entire life. I just thought this was the way things were supposed to be. Now I feel I need to cut all ties just to survive. I've failed at everything in life. Marriage, several careers, no kids, no lasting relationships, failed suicide attempt. I just want to be normal and it's not possible. I almost got blown up in Kuwait, the VA won't listen. I herniated a disc in my low back (at work) and got fired for it. I had surgery 2 months ago and probably need more. All of this because I rejected my bosses advances. So he made me do heavy lifting for a week straight. I've been in bed or a week because of the pain. I'm never going to work again. I got rejected by the library for volunteer work without an explanation. This world doesn't want me in it. Somehow, it knows I'm totally useless. I should have been dead a long time ago.