i've never gone through anything that ahppened in any of my attacks. i dont know how to. i dont want to why should i have to go through it again will this have an adverse effect on me? i keep reading ppls comments that i should talk about it but i dont want to its like admitting i'm weak and damaged. also do peoples mothers know whats happened to them? i dont want to tell my mother as i know she will blame herself and also may bring back up her past; she was abused as a child. i dont want to do that to her..