So I've developed this need to slowly start writing suicide notes. I don't have any date or anything set, or even plans to do anything soon. I just want to give my final words to the people I love the most. It almost feels like I want them to know that it wasn't a hasty decision. I've been dealing with these feelings for a long time, and they might not know that. They are short notes. They are tucked away in my journal. Addressed with the person's name at the top but they are mostly thank yous. Like I spend a lot of time telling the person how much they meant to me. Is this something I should be getting help for? I, for the most part, find them to be a healthy release--but I am dealing with SI and it just proves how skewed my perspective can be. Any thoughts?