but here I am. I can't explain. I can't even try to explain how I feel, and frankly, it's just a matter of time. I tried, I serarched for help, there is no help in this fucking country. Unless I can afford to see a private psyhologist, which I can't, not to mention that in this state, I would need every day counceling. I am so sad for the few people who won't be able to get over it. But every fucking minute is a torture. I never thgought someone copuld feel so low.