I have the strongest ever urge to just let go from everything. I'm 16 and doing my gcse's for the second time. When I did them the first time I thought I was going to pass but when I didn't it hit me that I would have to go to college and redo 2years worth of work in one year. It was all going well and i was getting C's in everything until a few days ago when I had a maths exam and I didn't do well at all. It then hit me that I didn't know anything about physics and chemistry for the next tests and how much I revise it won't go in my head. Then it hit me again that I could have to redo them again! I've already had a taste of failure and it's the worst feeling ever... And I can't bare to fail again, as I would rather die. My uncle committed suicide 3years ago by running his car while it was parked in the garage. The rest of my tests are in 2 weeks and I am thinking about walking into oncoming traffic or swallowing all the pills in my downstairs cabinet. I don't wanna tell my family that I might fail again as I don't want to get that look of disapointment. I don't want to die but I feel as there a no other way out.