I tried connecting to one of those immediate chat rooms for suicidal people. I was kept waiting for 30 minutes. Figures. Everytime I've asked for help in the past, it took so long. I'm tired of seeking help and keep wondering why I'm being kept around. I'm married, I'm 22, husband got laid off, I'm in college, living with my dad, my mom and grandpa died a month apart from each other. Mom and dad are/were alcoholics. Right now I want to drink a whole bottle of wine. I'm just tired of everything. What good am I doing? The only thing I'm worried about if I go is my dog. He's the only thing keeping me here. Blah. I've been shopping obsessively lately, slowly draining the bank account and my husband doesn't know. Nothing works.