Succinctly, I've come in here because I've lost all reason I ever had to continue living. Everything has gone down the drain. I have collated a list and bulleted it: I'm $100,000 in debt for college The market for my expertise collapsed, and I'm unemployed My family is estranged No woman has ever been interested in me I'm 23, and was diagnosed with clinical depression 17 years ago I am generally of ill health I don't have any friends I live in a trailer because that's the only way I will have a roof over my head In a couple months, I'm going to have to sell my car just to keep eating Due to my situation, I don't really foresee any future that I can consider acceptable and viable. I am open to the idea that I am possibly missing something, but I can't imagine what. Each day I think about it more and more, how logical it seems. So, yes, that's how I come to be here.