Ashley,
Please stay with us. I know it's hard right now, but please don't go. Set little goals for yourself. Tell yourself, "If I can make it to December 11th, I'll be alright." Just take it one day at a time. That's what I've been doing for the past few weeks and it really helps. Sometimes reading the Bible helps me. It really makes me aware of God's presence. Lately I've also been reading a booklet on depression and it has really changed my outlook on the whole thing, knowing that someone went through extremely dark times like I'm going through and came out on the other side. I'm a big reader and sometimes I like to think of myself as Frodo Baggins on his way to Mordor. The road through depression is dark and confusing, but some people overcome it. I make it my quest to overcome it, no matter how long that may take. Another example I think of is from "The Shawshank Redemption." If you haven't seen it, rent it. It is one of the most uplifting films of all time. Here's a little spoiler: to get out of prison the main character, Andy Dufresne, must crawl out of a sewage pipe. There's a quote from that movie that's always resonated with me, "Andy Dufresne, who crawled through a river of shit and came out clean on the other side." Take life in little, manageable chunks and it becomes easier. And don't ever be afraid to ask for help, though it sounds like you've already done this.
I hope you're around to see the sunlight on December 11th.
