Hello everyone.... Not really in a crisis as the forum name suggests, more of an all-the-time feling of uselessness and depression. Thoughts of suicide are in my mind all the time, and I did try once, 13 years ago. I'm an alcoholic, dry 2 1/2 years. Sobered up in AA here in Johannesburg. In AA terms I guess I'm a dry drunk though, and really can't be bothered to do the 12 steps. Step 1 was enough- admitting I'm an alcoholic, but as for all that making amends stuff, nah. I'm 52 years old, well will be on Monday next week, married with 2 kids.