Hi all, I'm new here. I often think if my life doesn't get better I will kill myself. I'm thinking of the best way to tell what's going on in my life, but I feel my problems have been pretty unique. I often wonder why it takes suicide before someone will get the help and attention they need... I had depression most of my life and can't afford therapy or treatment for it, but the moment I mention killing myself it's bad and I could be committed... makes no sense to me. just venting.