hi everybody. just made an account a couple minutes ago and im happy i have found a place that i can talk to people who are in similar mind states. im not going to go into my life story but ill give a quick intro. i love music of all kind, rap, classic rock, reggae, electronic, really everything. i love money and i love making money, partying and having a good time. i love helping people and seeing people happy. also, im 18, and have slowly come to the realization that i have a substance abuse problem that has gotten progressively worse over the years. i started smoking weed and drinking around 7th or 8th grade, and over time have tried just about everything in the book...really puts shit into perspective when i see it written out like that.. anyway, as of right now, my drugs of choice are opiates, which i have been doing since 10th grade. now, if you were to know me in real life, you probably wouldnt suspect i have a problem of this magnitude. i have a steady job, go to college, and have a good amount of friends. but when i think about it, the drugs have really started to fuck my mind up. ive always suffered from slight depression, but the past few years i feel as though it has skyrocketed, most likely due to my increased drug use. i have never mentioned any of this to doctors or anything like that. the reason for this, as ass-backwards as it sounds considering the abuse i put my body through, is because i dont want to be put on antidepressants. well anyway, i look forward to meeting and talking to all of you and if anyone has any questions feel free to ask them im really open about everything.