Hi everybody, I'm new here. I've been depressed on and off since I was a teenager (I'm 34 now), and I attempted suicide 6 years ago. I lived through it, and I've been in this thing called "Recovery" ever since. My main issues are with sexual abuse and sexual addiction. I'm really messed up. I'm going through a divorce right now, and I'm having a REALLY hard time with it. Feeling that ache of not having someone there, and knowing that I can't satisfy it, possibly ever. Feeling like I don't deserve anything in life except monotony and misery. I long to go to sleep one night and just never wake up.