Hey, I'm new to this forum...and I'm finding it to be pretty helpful. I am a poet and I've done a few readings...I'm trying to open up, recently my girlfriend Stacy was murdered and I love her so much. So, I'd like to share this poem with you, I hope you like it and...I hope it makes her proud. Monsindra’s Balled Oh things have changed… You hold my heart in a blissful utopia, guarding it from those who seek to destroy… Me… Oh why have you gone? Taken from me in a moment’s breath. All that I love and adore… All gone from this mortal plane. Your lips entwined with mine…oh it is so divine. I will hold you as the levee breaks, and it engulfs this world into a watery plane. Our rings forever warn for our love is eternal. Beyond the twilight of the moonlight we rest. Each star is yours, each star is mine. The planets may align only once in a lifetime. For us, those plants are always aligned. Aligned in our undying love that will break through barriers. It shall break through walls. Oh, it shall break through dimensions! For nothing of this world can keep us apart. Nothing that may come to being in this world will ever keep us apart. If I were given a choice, To live for five minutes with you, but then I shall be cast into the depths hell for eternity, Or to never be with you but to be given a seat at God’s right hand… The choice is simple; I will find a way, I will go to any lengths, to ensure that we are eternally in each other’s arms as lovers. For much has been taken from us… On this earth we shall never start our family that we’ve dreamed of… We shall never walk the aisle and wed as lovers in the eyes of God…on this earth... We shall never hold each other…hold hand in hand…on this earth… All our dreams, have been unjustly shot down. This evil has tainted our spirits, and that…may never heal. But our love will prevail, as you are waiting for me at the pearl white gates. Waiting to walk hand in hand as lovers, I shall be there soon… Why must all that is good, be damaged by evil. The one love in my life…is gone from this earth. But alive in my spirit, I can feel her… Watching over me…protecting me. Oh how I want to feel your soft touch… Gaze into your eyes of grace… Be together…inside you… My life was in turmoil… Then came my love… My sweet Stacy… My world… You gave me life, When all I knew was death… You exorcised the demons from my mind. My Angel… Step by step…we walk, Our hands together… Thoughts and feelings of love Love that can never die… No one of this world can ever understand me… My thoughts… My mind… But you are not of this world… You are my world…and everything in it. Oh please come back to me! Please let this all be a nightmare spawn from hell, Please let this not be true… Oh punish me instead…for I have done wrongs. She is a being of pure bliss. Take my soul instead… Take my soul to the darkest depths of Hades, In exchange for her…to have her life back. My sweet Stacy… I would give anything for you. My heart and soul belong to you… No one else… No mortal, No demon, No martyr, No satyr, No devil, No angel, No supreme being, No God… My heart and soul…belong to you. May the ones who have committed this act be damned, May those be judged… May justice be sought… But these are not of my control. This is in your control, And I know you will forgive. But never forget. You have the heart of a saint. The cancer in my soul…eats me alive. The sickness of my body…has brought misery to those I love. It has brought misery to me… Each day I try to heal, with you by my side. Oh Stacy… The reason I have continued and have not given up hope… Oh how can you be taken from me… But, our love…can never be taken. Where to go from here… What shall I do next? Sickening thoughts fill my mind… For you shall want me to live on… And I… do not want you waiting at those gates for long… So dazed and confused…I must…try to live on. Live on for me… Live on for you… For your life has been taken from us… You can share mine. Together as one being on this earth…imagine what we’ll accomplish. Imagine the heights we shall reach. For I know you will cure me… I know you are with me… Your ashes have been thrown into the wind to find me… And you have… Oh how I wish we could have accomplished your dream… Just as you said… In a house of bliss, pregnant with my child… Oh Stacy…so much has been taken from us… My soul in such turmoil… That I know shall never heal, Until I walk through those gates with you… In time… What have I become… An instrument of grief? A patient for torment and sorrow? What more can be taken from me… Oh, my darkest fear…has come to past Why am I still here? What purpose must I serve? These questions may never be answered… I am not sure of much these days. All I know…is that I Love You. I will love you through the darkest of times, I will love you through the end of days. I shall travel to the very ends of this universe, to find you. If you must ask for me to put my love into a mortal perspective… All that you have to do… Is count every star in the sky, Every grain of sand, Every smile on this earth, Every child that has…and will be born. Every piece of light. Every tree on this earth, And all of this…would not even account for a fraction of my love for you. I have been afraid, Everyday we have been together… Of losing you. And everyday you assure me I never shall… I know I have not lost you… My grief is unbearable. My grief is unfathomable. My love for you… Shall never die. My hand reaches out for you… To hold you… To kiss you… To love you. For my future on this mortal plane, I know not… I fear of the future… I know you will be by my side. I want to walk hand in hand with you…. My lover. Please help me understand, For I am at a loss without you… I do not know what is right, All I can feel is your undying love… I am blessed to be yours… For there is no being as beautiful and loving as you in any plane. I shall try to continue… Please… Forgive me if I fail… Forgive me if I fall… I am trying… Trying to understand. To understand why I am here. To understand my purpose. For we all have one. As you slipped into a coma…you whispered my name… I heard you… Now I whisper yours… Can you hear me?