I left a long marriage, as my husband was a violent alcoholic. I lived in fear for many years and he almost killed our son. I was also abused by my family prior to my marriage, and sexually molested by my sisters boyfriend who raped my younger sister. I have also been attacked at knifepoint, and survived a train accident that has caused me a lifetime of pain from a spinal injury. After leaving my husband, I had to battle him through the courts for a year, then was made redundant from my job in the same week I had 2 court hearings and then went into another job where I was verbally abused which increased the severity of my Post Traumatic Stress and Chronic Depression, my body ended up in 24 hour panic mode which I hadnt felt since I was living with my ex and now I have had to give up work altogether and am not surviving on the benefit I recieve which only gives me a few dollars left each week or food, petrol and any other bill like doctors bill, I was in an accident over 10 weeks ago and am still in alot of pain, i couldnt move for 4 weeks but cant afford to see a doctor. Due to my Post Traumatic Stress I have difficulty sleeping and when I do I have nightmares of my ex murdering my son along with other similar dreams. I suffer from chronic anxiety and am afraid of ppl and stay at home all the time. My family don't want anything to do with me either, including my oldest son which is devastating for me. I feel like I have lost my whole world and dont see any point in going on and no matter how much I talk, it doesnt take away the hurt and pain I feel. I have never been loved and never will. I have nothing to hang on for.