Hi everyone, I found this forum today, after watching my husband walk out the front door to spend the night at his new girlfriend's house. I've been perusing the forum for a few hours, finding lots of love and support. I've had suicidal thoughts most of my adult life (I'm 48) but obviously, never followed through. Not surprisingly, they creep up in times of personal or professional crisis. Last night I was trying to figure out why I want to do it, but could never take that final step. I did find an older thread that addressed these very thoughts! It was so helpful to find others that feel the same way. I even saw that a few members use the adult coloring books, which is what I started doing when my husband announced that he was done with our our marriage. I'm glad I'm not alone, thank you all for being here.