Hi , I'm new and I never saw myself posting something like this .. I'll keep my long story short so I don't bore everyone .. I've been depressed my whole life so this is nothing new .. This slump I'm in .. These suicidal thought .. The not sleeping not eating not anything .. But every time I get like this it seems to consume me more and more . I know I can't kill myself I have a son and my father killed himself i know what it did to me . But i just don't want to live . I feel done . Content with staring at a wall all day being alive but dead for the most part . I hate this the feeling is so miserable it true hurts .. I don't know what I'm asking for here .. Except a magical way to get rid of this feeling that I'm dead with my eyes open ..