I have tried to connect to a few online chat IM's for suicide. Unfortunately, none are available. I am beyond talking on the phone because when I cry I can't be understood. I think I have already made up my mind that I am leaving, have decided how I am going to do it, just waiting until the new year. Are there people here who you can talk to? My family doesn't understand and only adds to the problems. I suffer from so many mental illnesses that I have lost count. I am in therapy but don't disclose my real feelings because I don't want to be locked up. Please help!