I am too much of a coward to do it myself. I have even gone so far as to try to intimidate others to take my life for me. Between a mother who was abusive in every way, being molested and abandoned by my mother eventually and Recently going through a bad breakup with a woman who told me on my birthday 4 years ago she was pregnant then had a abortion against my pleads a few weeks later I just have no more fight. I am done. But i cant do it due to my fear of it hurting or not going right and the attempt leaving me a vegetable instead.