I'm new. I've tried repeatedly since 4th gr. to commit suicide, due to an extremely abusive childhood. I'm now middle aged & wish I'd died long ago. I've been hospitalized very briefly more than once. I've been on Rx for years, see my GP regularly, & saw a good psychologist for 11 yr. No kids, tired of working hard to help others through community volunteer work, & being unemployed/underemployed. High IQ, 100% bored with life. No BFF.