Hey everyone, I'm new here. I wanted to find a place where I could share how bad I feel and find others. I don't have a lot of support in "real life." My mom is undiagnosed bipolar and I dont fit in with my two siblings. I've dealt with suicidal thoughts for my whole life. I dont remember there being a time that I wasn't sad. I was abused as a kid, and I feel like its all my family thinks of when they see me, "the girl that got abused." I dont want to keep living, and I dont know what else to do, so I came here.