Hi @note book , welcome to SF. That is perfectly fine and understandable. You are not pressured to do/say anything you don't want to, and we're always here to listen. We certainly want you to feel as comfortable as possible, so if you have any questions/comments or want us to know the best way to talk to you, feel free to express that.
I think trust is earned anyway and it's not easy. I hope you can find some people that you can trust a little bit someday (if that is what you wish), I'm sure plenty can relate to your feelings or some of your circumstances, which helps with understanding. Most people here are pretty amazing. In the meantime, sending some love and hugs.