I'm new here, I'm 18 and I've been suffering from depression for almost all of my life I've come to the conclusion about. I just didn't recognize that I really was suffering from depression until about 3 years ago. I've had suicidal thoughts for many years going back to the age of 9. At that time even though it was only a butterknife I stuck it to my forehead and told my parents I wanted to die. That seems very serious to me that I actually did that though at the age of 9, as a result I was sent to my first therapist. I now have one psychologist and one psychiatrist that I see. Even though I've grown up with a great family and great parents I still feel empty and my general view is that life sucks and it's boring and not worth living. My parents are both M.D.'s so I've been spoiled all my life. I've received almost everything I could have wanted as far as materials. I've been all over the country and out of the country. I love to watch sports and I've been able to see some great players,teams and very prestigious sporting events but I still feel empty. All of that really means nothing to me. Being spoiled and given material items really doesn't make me happy. Now I hang out with friends and do things I think are enjoyable in the short-term but in general I'm not a happy person at all but most don't know that, it's buried deep inside and I keep it to myself for the most part. I just think life is terrible, it's boring and not worth living.