I am coming out from a nervous breakdown and the longest, most brutal bout of depression I ever endured. I am still very much on the verge of suicide because I just don't want to take the daily pounding from my OCD, GAD and psychological baggage/ issues from the severe physical abuse of my childhood. I am forty one (vanity compels me to say I am taken for my early twenties) digitally illiterate and though I believe there is a supreme being I unfortunately have no belief in anything else supernatural (afterlife, the soul, prayer etc.). I am here to find the strength to resist suicide. I am still alive only because I don't want to harm loved ones but that is really not enough anymore. I don't know what else say but hi everyone.