Hello every one, I don't know what to say really so I'll just start. I've been suicidal for about 4 months now due to the fact I'm going through the hardest time in my life at this point. Just to explain: I lost my job Lost my car My ex took my son after 4 years and disappeared out of my life. I've been through a lot but the hardest was losing my son and my true love. I've tried to kill myself several times but keep getting saved after each attempt, for what reason I don't know. I finally came to reality after so long to realize that I truly loved my ex but it was to late due to things in the past between us... I just can't seem to go on or find a way to get of this state. Every time I hear, see or have something that reminds me of her, it just brings back memories and I just want to end it all. I know people have said this before but I've went through life making mistakes every wheres I go and I'm tired of making mistakes. I'm tired of losing things that are close to me or that are important.... I just feel that if I end it all it'll end my pain.