Hi I`m a 24 year old female, who is diagnosed with Bipolar type II, who struggle now with self harm and eating issues. I search up suicide sites online, because I want to, but can`t because I have a big family that need me. If it hadn`t been for them, I would have found a way to do it a long time ago. So, I don`t, but in the bad periods, I hardly know what to do with myself. I self harm, don`t eat, feel like I am this overload of emotions that I can`t deal with. Everything is so hard, economically, socially, personally ... I live in a big city, quite far from my family, but with a sister nearby, who`s in college. We`ve got a good relationship, but I`m struggling and the problems between us trigger me badly. So, that`s it, I suppose. I was diagnosed with my disorder a year and a half ago. Had a good summer, but now that we are in December, it`s getting really bad. I hate winter so much. Especially Christmas. Thought perhaps I should register. It would feel good to be able to talk to someone. Nat.