Soooooo...I'm new here and stuff. Umm. I'm not super suicidal all the time...but sometimes I'm like, "If I die, it's not like I'll be upset or anything, I'll just be dead." It's funny cause sometimes I find stupid little reasons to stay alive like, "oh wait...I made plans this weekend. I guess I have to live just so long." I don't know. My life is actually pretty good. I have no idea why I want to die sometimes. I actually recently started cutting myself, but then I decided to stop. Uhhh...I like the little smileys. oo: especially this one haha. But yeah. I never thought it would get so bad that I would actually join a forum, but then again, I also said I would never cut myself. I don't exactly know what I'm expecting out of this, but...here I am.