Hello everyone.
I am new here and found this place during a google search for people who I can talk to and relate to slightly.
Depression has always been apart of my life for a very personal reason, and I have been seeing psychiatrists for it for years. Roughly starting around the age of 7.
It got taken undercontrol; by myself, for the past few years and at 22 now, I thought I had managed to get rid of it. How wrong I was...
This year has been terrible for negitive events, right when I was going back to a suicidal state, I found out my long term boyfriend had been cheating on me. As those of you have been hurt in that way, it sent me over the edge and I became the worst state mentally I have ever been in my life and I spent a month in a psychiatric hospital.
I ended up checking myself out because I dont see myself as a "crazy person"; which is how I was treated. I wasn't even allowed to keep vitamin tablets in my room.
During my stay there; I learnt a lot about myself. The first being even though psychiatric hospitals have a bad image; and believe me I wondered what I had got myself into quite a lot. I met some really intelligent and the most interesting people I have ever met in my life.
But I also realized I am not meant to be there. I was so upset and confined to this hospital that all I could do was read, cry and smoke like a chimney. Before I entered I wasn't even a smoker, but the only freedom I got was to sit outside and smoke.
Four months later, I am still very upset but don't tell anyone. I also still miss my ex massively. Very hurt from the way I was treated, but I think about him and even his family, everyday. They were a big part of my life for 2 years.
Tonight, for whatever reason, I have felt worse. And I have no body who I can talk to and get some understanding from. Hopefully I will find that on here :o)
I am new here and found this place during a google search for people who I can talk to and relate to slightly.
Depression has always been apart of my life for a very personal reason, and I have been seeing psychiatrists for it for years. Roughly starting around the age of 7.
It got taken undercontrol; by myself, for the past few years and at 22 now, I thought I had managed to get rid of it. How wrong I was...
This year has been terrible for negitive events, right when I was going back to a suicidal state, I found out my long term boyfriend had been cheating on me. As those of you have been hurt in that way, it sent me over the edge and I became the worst state mentally I have ever been in my life and I spent a month in a psychiatric hospital.
I ended up checking myself out because I dont see myself as a "crazy person"; which is how I was treated. I wasn't even allowed to keep vitamin tablets in my room.
During my stay there; I learnt a lot about myself. The first being even though psychiatric hospitals have a bad image; and believe me I wondered what I had got myself into quite a lot. I met some really intelligent and the most interesting people I have ever met in my life.
But I also realized I am not meant to be there. I was so upset and confined to this hospital that all I could do was read, cry and smoke like a chimney. Before I entered I wasn't even a smoker, but the only freedom I got was to sit outside and smoke.
Four months later, I am still very upset but don't tell anyone. I also still miss my ex massively. Very hurt from the way I was treated, but I think about him and even his family, everyday. They were a big part of my life for 2 years.
Tonight, for whatever reason, I have felt worse. And I have no body who I can talk to and get some understanding from. Hopefully I will find that on here :o)