Ok, long and short of it, I'm here because things aren't going well. I had quit self harming for about 17 years, found alternatives, just gotten better at managing my reactions, avoiding triggers etc. Well, nothing quite like a major stress-er to bring it back, nightmares and all. Not proud of it, the cuts only really relieve it for a few minutes anyway. Tried a support group found myself on a so far 5 month waiting list. I'm at my whits end at this point, and I guess just reaching out.