I want to die. I want my pain to end. I want my husband (who did attempt suicide) to come back to me. I can't live without him. He's my entire being. Yet I don't think he really believes that. I would rather die than continue in this painful agony. He was released from the hospital but won't come home. He's with a "friend". I just.don't know how long I can be here for him without him wanting me to be here.