Mom picked up my first new set of meds today; some sleeping pills. My Psych doctor prescribed them to me so that I can regulate my sleeping and hopefully; become more physically healthy. (since I get no sleep most days and maybe a few hours a week - and I'm always sick and lacking vitamins that most people would get just from being in the sunlight from time to time) Once I get more sleep and a clearer mind, we will be talking about possibly putting me on other meds for my anxiety/depression and other things. For now though- just a trial run on some new sleep meds. Dosage is fairly low, I think - as I'm just starting... but the pharmacist has told my mother that the pills have a fairly high chance of affecting my mood and possibly giving me suicidal thoughts. I already have suicidal thoughts most days before even taking any pills. If I'm taking something that could make my mood lower... then I'll probably end up attempting again. I've been trying not to- but kindof failing... Should I go back to my doctor and tell her how I'm feeling - and not take these specific pills? I'll be at home alone every day and no one will be around for me if I get a sudden low and want to kill myself... so there's no safety net. I'm also being trusted to take my pills without an automatic daily dispenser; which means that I can take as many as I want if I suddenly wanna take the whole bottle. I want to be responsible for myself, but I don't know if I am. What would you do in this situation?