New Meds

Discussion in 'Therapy and Medication' started by Bryn70, May 29, 2015.

  1. Bryn70

    Bryn70 Member

    I started sertraline six weeks ago and for the first three weeks I was in the pit and could only think about My Plan. For two of those weeks I stayed in bed, didn't eat, hardly drank anything, suffered tremors, heard the sound of trains and images of bridges in my head, furiously googled exit methods, lay sweating and shaking and wishing for it all to stop.

    Finally, though, it seems to be working. Situationally, nothing has changed in my life; the things that happened, and are still happening, that contributed in large part to my most recent descent are the same but it seems that my brain chemistry has changed for the better. I seem more able to take a step back and observe my thoughts and emotions rather than allow them to continue to control me.

    I've also started practicing "mindfulness" meditation which has had an unexpected calming effect and helps me to focus on the here and now instead of wallowing in regret or fearing for the future.

    Things are still tough and there are days when the feeling that I need to go comes back but there's a tiny little spark in the darkness and I'm going to try very hard to keep ahold of it.

    It can get better.
  2. total eclipse

    total eclipse SF Friend Staff Alumni

    Glad to hear your medication is taking hold and is helping you and that the mindfullness therapy is also helping you stay in here and now
  3. Petal

    Petal SF dreamer Staff Member Safety & Support SF Supporter

    Hi bryn, I have also had success with sertraline and i'm still on it, really glad to hear it has helped you come out of that pit you were in. Best of luck for the future :hugs: