After trying citalopram with no effect and trazadone which turned me into a doped out zombie I have now been started on mirtazepine. Just a small dose for now as I am sensitive to sedative meds. Does anyone have experience of mirtazepine? Doc also suggested crisis team but holding off for now. And I find it so frustrating when everyone tells me depressions a cyclic thing and I will come out of it ... Thing is I am not really sure that I want to come through it this time ... It's always under the surface and it would just be a reprieve until the next crisis. And when it is life experience which has brought me to this point, and that cant be changed, it makes so much more sense to just stop, doesn't it?