I don't really know what to post. I am a 35 year old mother of two terrific boys, and married to a great man who has stood by me though the good and the BAD. I suffer form sever depression, agoraphobia, panic/anxiety disorder and also have a heaping scoop of A.D.H.D and OCD just to round out the group. I have been in manic mode for about 6 months now, my bedroom is my sanctuary, my security. I don't know how much to include in an introductory, so I will end by saying this...I can't stop thinking about ending my life. I don't want to die, I want to live for my kids and husband and really that's all that's kept me alive for this long.