Hi, I joined a few days ago... I've had depression probably my whole life...with some short periods inbetween of relief but other than that...of course, I can't be sure if I had it as a *very* young child as I don't remember most of my life before 10 years old. I think some things must have happened to make me block so much of that...but I still don't know exactly what. Anyways, I'm in a majorly depressive period of my life right now, everything seems to be going wrong. I lost my job, I failed classes at school for a career that I really really really wanted, my health has been horrible and recently I had to go to stay twice in the hospital, having a surgery done the first time and the second time a procedure done to get what was missed, my car broke down for the last time and now I have no car...as you have probably guessed finances are extremely tight...and I have been having serious issues in my relationship...but now that seems to be coming to an end, as he told me yesterday he is leaving. So I've been having multiple problems that are seriously putting a strain on me...and yes I have had suicidal thoughts...I don't know what else to say right now..that was tough enough. That's the jist anyways.