I'm actually a little excited to be here. I'm glad this exists.
I'm a little hesitant to tell people my entire story... it's complicated and I haven't always been the best person. But I'll start with saying my father suffered with an intense, dark depression. I always had an inkling of it, but was mostly happy until I was about 34 when my parents died approximately 3 months apart of cancer. That was 15 years ago. Since then, it's been a bit of a struggle. I think with a lot of people losing both parents because of Covid, something has been triggered. But that's just part of it. There's more, and I'm hoping to find a place to share it.
I've been everywhere looking for some understanding. And I have to do it like this, sort of on the down-low because my husband and I are now both working from home. He knows I have depression issues, but I don't want him to know how deep they are getting, because I do think our marriage is on the rocks, and I need to work some stuff out before I make any decisions (we've been together almost 20 years). A lot of stuff gets built up inside of me, so I'm hoping this will help me release some of that.
I think about death a lot. Wish it upon myself. I am beginning to lose interest in things. I'm very tired.
So, thank you again for this forum, and I'll start looking around. Hello to everyone. Sending love.
I'm a little hesitant to tell people my entire story... it's complicated and I haven't always been the best person. But I'll start with saying my father suffered with an intense, dark depression. I always had an inkling of it, but was mostly happy until I was about 34 when my parents died approximately 3 months apart of cancer. That was 15 years ago. Since then, it's been a bit of a struggle. I think with a lot of people losing both parents because of Covid, something has been triggered. But that's just part of it. There's more, and I'm hoping to find a place to share it.
I've been everywhere looking for some understanding. And I have to do it like this, sort of on the down-low because my husband and I are now both working from home. He knows I have depression issues, but I don't want him to know how deep they are getting, because I do think our marriage is on the rocks, and I need to work some stuff out before I make any decisions (we've been together almost 20 years). A lot of stuff gets built up inside of me, so I'm hoping this will help me release some of that.
I think about death a lot. Wish it upon myself. I am beginning to lose interest in things. I'm very tired.
So, thank you again for this forum, and I'll start looking around. Hello to everyone. Sending love.
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