Hi. I really need this type of support, as I have been very depressed my enrite life, and absolutely no one understands. I am actively involved in individual and group therapy, have tried numerous medications, and manage a successful career, yet I just wish I was very old and close to dying. If someone has a medical condition they receive a certain amount of sympathy and empathy, but it seems that having a disabling psychological condition just evokes ridicule. Right now I am very depressed and feel like I want to crawl out of my skin. I am very angry and wish that this terrible fury would abate. I cannot sleep or eat, nor can I get going in the morning. Today I just stayed in bed. I go to church, pray, donate money, work, give advice to friends. I am not a whiney complaining type of person. I just wish I didn't feel so awful. I am content with not being happy, I just don't want to feel so bad. I also feel terrible because I get so angry with God, and I know he didn't do this to me. It would be easier if I had a supportive group of people whom I could talk to, but I don't. Please tell me that someone out there can relate and that I am not all alone in this suffering.